“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you” — Maya Angelou

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First things, first, I would like to say thank you. Thank you for being interested in me enough to land on my “About Me” section of my profile. I currently reside in California with the majority of my family. I work as a Claims Processor at a popular Children’s Hospital. One of my goals is to pivot from the medical field and become a full-time writer. I have two beautiful nieces that I adore and I would give them the world. I love being the…

My Current Battle With Carpal Tunnel Syndrome

It wasn’t until now I realized that I’d taken advantage of my hands.

The essential extremities to every human are our hands. For the last couple of months, I’ve been thinking about my purpose. The things I once was able to do I can no longer do or be anymore. Will I ever feel 100%? Will I ever do all of the things that I love in this lifetime?

As I type/voice note this, both of my hands are screaming for help.

Screaming for normalcy

The many things I took for granted

Putting on pants

Holding my favorite mug for…

I Cry about the mistreatment of my kindness

I Cry about the manipulation of my thoughts

I Cry about the thoughtlessness of me being human

I Cry with the hope of releasing the hurt from my heart

I Cry with the hope of healing to my soul

I Cry with the intent of someone asking me, “what’s wrong?”

When the above doesn’t meet the beyond, I Cry because my arms can’t stretch any further

I Cry when I feel like I’m an afterthought

I Cry when my love and affection go unnoticed

I Cry when I feel used

When the…

Clothes With Memories Attached

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If you’re a Netflix junky like me, you’ll casually go to the section that previews new movies and shows to add them to your “Watch Later” list. One show that I was excited to watch was Worn Stories; it’s a limited series that focuses on our emotional attachment to specific items of clothes. From sweaters, hats, ties, and even jockstraps, people talk about why that item means and the emotional impact. It amazed me how much we idolize the things that we have. We’ve all become hoarders in our own right, which is why most American’s want bigger and better…

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Now and again, I love to go back and re-watch movies that I enjoyed in the 90s. Not only is it nostalgic, but it makes me realize how far I’ve grown and my changing perception. Love Jones is one of those films that I can watch twenty times in a row and still feel the same way each time. Black cinema in the 90s didn’t healthily display black love. I first viewed this movie at the age of eleven, and I knew then that something was unique about this film. I wasn’t mature enough to put it into words, but…

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We all have dreams and nightmares. For the past two months, I’ve been having nightmares about dying children with one child in particular. After talking with my therapist, I finally understand what my dreams mean. I’m still in awe of how I can have unconditional love for someone without knowing them. My niece saved my life. Before she was born, I was experiencing depression, anxiety, and having suicidal thoughts.

When she came into the world seven pounds and twenty-one inches long, I couldn’t help but ignore my negative thoughts and admire her round precious face. I thank her mom for…

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Dear Teisha LeShea,

I hope you are spending the third day of January, well. I won’t waste your time reflecting on what 2020 brought. I want to use this blank white canvas to paint a picture of what’s to come in 2021. Your vision isn’t quite 2020; hence you wear glasses, but you’ve always dreamed about the possibilities. You’ve always been a maladaptive daydreamer allowing your gift of empathy to think, feel, taste, and hear the future. Many will call it psychotic I call it having a utopian experience that keeps you centered. This form of meditation has been crystal…

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This year, I wrote an article for xoNecole titled “5 Holistic Ways I Take Care Of My Vaginal Health”.I spoke about my issues with fibroids and what steps I was currently taking to improve my vaginal health. In early February, I decided to remove my IUD (I was not too fond of that thing); since that day, I’ve been researching ingredients and more natural alternatives. My goal for 2020 is to ultimately use natural products and avoid perfumes and other toxic brands. With tons of trial and error, I curated a list of the products that I use. …

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“In the process of letting go, you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself. “- Deepak Chopra

Eleven months ago, I wrote a piece titled “Let Go-Why It’s Simply Not Working” I was in the ultimate headspace. I was finally in a place of clarity and peacefulness. I went to therapy; I did the required homework assignments. I was honest and straight forward. I gave the process the time and the love needed to grow. I spoke about having a reliable support system and what individual relationships meant to me and what my new requirements…

Teisha LeShea

Writing stories for healing and clarity. Contributor Vocal Media. IG writers page tl_teisha.leshea for all my latest content

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